For by one Spirit, we all Baptized into One Body.

Wow another week gone. This week was spent cleaning and organizing my house like CRAZY. Seriously ALL aspects of my house have been cleaned and organized. Things I haven't touched since we moved in I have thrown away or put in their proper place. I like the feeling of being organized. I like that I really don't have much clutter.

I have been doing all of this in preparation for my baby girls baptism. I really can't believe my baby is being baptized this weekend. I am really excited to take pictures and post em up here. But that will have to wait.

My grandparents are going to meet the baby for the first time which is also so very exciting. I can't wait for this day to be over and we can just begin to see the family. Tonight is a birthday dinner and prepping for the party and then tomorrow is clean, prep and PARTY!

WOO!

These are a few of my favorites! 

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I wanted to piggyback this posting with the beautiful pictures of the day.

I will let them speak for themselves. 

We all slept thru the night...

Big night in our house we all slept thru the night. We were in bed by 10:15 and I am pretty sure I dozed off around 10:45. Next thing I know the alarm clock is going off and Daniel asked if we just slept thru the night. I really didn't think about it, I was in a haze from all the sleep. But yes indeed we all slept one full night! Really I haven't had an uninterupted night of sleep since maybe month 6 of the pregnancy. The third trimester was hard, I was SO big and so was the baby inside.

Hopefully that just means that there are more of these to come.

Maybe it was the peas, yes ladies and gents, my little love muffin had her first veggie yesterday. Peas! I love peas and so does she. It is just so amazing this little person. She was opening her mouth nice and wide for her food just like she had done it a million times already. Her instinct is pretty cool.

I have been taking zoloft for the last week to help with the anxiety and it definitely is helping. I don't have that overwhelming anxious feeling constantly anymore. I still over think and try to get everything done but I doubt that's ever going to go away. I am just thankful the rapid heartbeat and sweating and feeling like my brain was in a blender feeling has gone away. The doctor put me on 50mg and it was giving me some not so fun side effects so I decided to cut them in half. I have done half a pill for the last two days and it seems to be a much nicer dose. I am not one to get headaches and with the stronger dose my head was killing me! I am really glad that I know my body and it was just a little much. I mean I am messing with my brain chemistry so things are going to be a little strange but overall things are good.

The house is coming along nicely for our upcoming parties. The baptism is in a week and Cinco De Mayo is the week after. WOO. The back splash is up, YEA! We just have to grout and then I can put my kitchen back together. This weekend is a cleaning weekend. The first floor looks good except for the kitchen which is all on the dining room table right now. The upstairs needs a good cleaning, there is stuff everywhere and it all just needs to find its home. I am going to say there will be 4 bags of garbage this weekend, if I were to guess.

Well its Friday, that week went fast. I have lots of pictures to upload but I need to sit at my computer and work on them. The mac upstairs has been hijacked by my husband who has an obsession with a battle pirate game. I am becoming more and more NOT a fan and have jokingly threatened to turn off the internet but the joke is becoming less funny and more of an actual thought.

Oh marriage.

Happy Friday!

Addison Mary is 19 weeks old.

We were in Ireland when I was 19 weeks pregnant.

Time Flies.

What a year ...

A year ago almost to the date we found out we were pregnant... again. I remember just waiting and waiting to start the next round of clomid. I rushed the doctor to write me another prescription, rushed to pick it up because I needed it for when we were away. Or so I thought. It was such a fluke, I really did not believe it for days. I didn't quite understand how the month after another miscarriage and not really trying could result in yet another pregnancy test.

When we got home from our trip we made a paper chain to help me to just work thru each day until we could get to the doctors. At that point I felt so silly calling them again to schedule my appointment. With each passing day and each time we ripped off a link we were getting closer and closer. I can still feel the anticipation like it was yesterday.

And here we are a whole year later with a beautiful 4 month old baby. Everyone comments on how she looks just like me and it makes my heart skip a beat.

Baby girl had her first Easter which was so very exciting. We dyed eggs, she had her picture taken with the Easter bunny and we went to the Keiffer Family get together. I also had an impromptu dinner with the Szymanski's. It was really nice though.

Daniel;s PE exam is tomorrow so he is heading to Pennsylvania tonight to get a good nights sleep and be ready for the am. I know he is going to do really well, I am just nervous for him.

I also went to the doctor a few days ago and she put me on zoloft for the anxiety. I am normally not for drugs but I am so ready to just chill out. I feel like I am so anxious all the time and physically I am tense and my heart races, I am sweaty and I have headaches. Yuck. So hopefully this works. We scheduled a follow up appointment in 6 weeks. What I am really thankful for is the ability to notice the change and know that it is not right.

Tonight its just me and the baby so we are meeting my girlfriend for a run tonight and hopefully when the baby goes down I can do some cleaning. The laundry is backed up! Anyway, back to work I go. At least tomorrows Friday.

New Week

So its a new week. My anxiety is still here I still feel like my head is spinning. But so is life.

This weekend we took a trip to NJ, baby's first trip there and really first road trip with her. It went as well as it can go with a 3 month old. She slept for a good portion then cried for a bit, we were all excited to be out of the car when we got to Grandma and Grandpas house. Everyone inside the house was waiting patiently for our arrival and my phone was blowing up with the calls and texts for the ETA. As soon as we got there and passed the baby around we hung out for a bit and then decided to capitalize on the fact the that the baby was being taken care of and mom and dad went to bed!

She slept horrible that night, it must have just been the change of scenery because she had a party at 2am. At that point it was my birthday so I just held her and let her snuggle into my neck while I smelled her wonderful baby smell. I talked to her about how it was my birthday and I was so glad to have her. Then finally she went back to bed and we slept until 6.

I knew it was my birthday but it just felt a little different. Not that I didn't care but I just felt eh about it. We had an easy morning and everyone wished me a happy birthday. We then decided to take the baby to get her picture taken with the easter bunny. I know right SO CUTE. Thats the super fun part about being a mom, I get to do all the super cute fun stuff with her. She got dressed in her adorable baby gap outfit and we were off to the mall. Her Auntie MoMo sat in on a picture with her as well. Adorable. I will add the pictures I just have to sit at my home computer and scan them and upload my camera pics from the weekend.

For my birthday dinner we went to this seafood place which was such a nice treat. I love me some seafood and boy did we eat. I seriously gained 5 pounds this weekend. No really the scale says plus 5. Sad Face. Anyway I had some clams and king crab legs YUM-O and Daniel had an 8 pound lobster. Yep 8 pounds. It was so intense but when offered something like that you have to get it. Everyone in the restaurant was looking and we had a good time just laughing about it and taking pictures. I had a few margaritas and then it was home for some cake.

So my momma made me a cake which was very good and she made it look pretty with glitter too. After the singing and the cutting and the eating we started talking about the glitter and it somehow came up that it probably isn't edible. Well lo and behold my momma put craft glitter on my birthday cake and we call ate it. Needless to say we laughed and laughed about, but my cake really did look pretty. My girlfriend from HS came to see me and the baby which was wonderful. It still is crazy to think we were just kids and now we own homes and I made a baby!

The hubs gave me beautiful cards that are so sentimental. He really has a way with words, especially when he just gushes about how much he loves me and how I have given him the best gift and how he is in awe of me. Really - he wrote he is in awe of me. Swoon. I have a good man! He also made sure Addie gave me a card too, so cute. He bought me a willow tree mom holding her baby, ( I really love them because we have received one for every big event in our life) and some white strips for my teeth!! YEA. I did ask for them, it may seem lame but those suckers are expensive and I can't justify spending my money on that crap. So its perfect when someone else does! Plus in my "birthday month" we received our new couch, new rug(s), new blender, new kitchen scale, curtains for our bedroom and new shoes so no need to feel bad for me. I think I am doing ok.

I head to the doctor next week to take precautions against having a little brother or sister just yet. Phew. And to talk to her about treating this crazy anxiety I have been having. I can't wait.

My baby girl is 4 months this Easter Sunday.

AND SHE ROLLED OVER!!! I have a video, I will have to post it. Keep your eyes peeled!