Life

I just needed to get some things off my chest and I know that I have this little corner I can always turn to.

Life is crazy beautiful. but right now its crappy.

Our house was broken into two nights ago and my computer was stolen along with money we had in the house. It was a perfect storm of events, that I have replayed in my head a thousand and one times. I am distraught, heartbroken and scared. Hopefully this does not happen again but that doesn't mean my life did not just get completely shaken up. It has been on my mind for the last two days. Going to sleep last night, I went to bed scared. What an awful way to be in your own home. Not only do I feel violated, this person now has every picture I have taken in the last 10 years of my life. We changed passwords and called all the banks.

At the end of the day I am thankful we are all ok I am just angry and hurt. How dare you enter my home to take what I have worked so hard to obtain. How dare you.

Its hard to know that we live our life so honorably, we hold doors for old people and teach our daughter to be a good person, then people come along and break into my home. I am thankful Addison is not older and does not understand the fear, to her everything is as it was. Someday I will feel that same way but for now, I am so hurt.

Life has given us so many blessings. We have had so many wonderful days lately. Our marriage is strong and our daughter is growing. Its hard not to take this as such  a hit, someone came into my home, broke into my home. and all i am left with is fear.

Now someone mentioned to me after hearing about this that owning a gun makes them not scared. Well I say to them, in this instance owning a gun did not matter. Does it make me less fearful, no. Awful people find ways. I wish we locked that window, I wish Stella slept downstairs, I wish I didn't feel this, but those don't matter now... it happened. We are dealing with it the best we can.

Thanksgiving in Maine

Well well, the holidays are over and the last 6 weeks of my life are a complete blur. Everything went to the way-side as I had open enrollment for work which consumes my every waking hour.

The silver lining to this whole 'stop real life and work until your fingers bleed' times of year is that I get to look back and remember the holiday.

Thanksgiving for us the last ten or so years has turned out to be a family reunion of the Murphy side. We didn't go last year as I was a week and a half away from my due date and didn't want to take the 8 hour trip. This year of course we went because most of my family, aunts and uncles and cousins, had never met Addison. It was somewhat crazy to think about but I was so very excited for them all to meet my daughter. We took the day to drive up which really wasn't bad, we borrowed a portable dvd which was a lifesaver. Elmo's Christmas adventure played three times I believe, I was a little down with the Alicia Keys and Elmo duet but it kept her content. When we got there Kara met us at the door and it was so nice for her to see my banana covered messy baby.

Shortly after we arrived and got settled our little lady had seemed to have enough of the sitting in the car and started walking all around. It was a switch, she had just had enough sitting and the whole time we were there she was perfecting her walking.

 Her first Turkey!

 Mrs. Wright Party Animal

 Mommy Juice

 Just so much love. 

 Cousin Bath Time! 

 First Steps 

 Some of the Family meeting Addie for the first and second time, breathtaking.