When I look back at this year I am in awe of all of the changes that have taken place. There have been highs and lows but in the end I could not feel anymore blessed and lucky. Having a newborn shakes up your life so much as it is, moving to a different state while having a new one is just unthinkable. Then Daddy breaks his leg, one more change. Life has given us so many twists and turns. This month is all about being thankful. Thanksgiving is one week away. It will be different for us than any other year. We will not be spending this holiday in Maine. I have dubbed this year our humble thanksgiving. There will be four people around our table not forty. A piece of me is sad that my family has not yet met Jackson but I am pretty sure we will video chat with everyone there at some point. It really is just mind blowing when you think about the things you don't know. I didn't know we would live in Georgia, I didn't know Jackson was a boy, but in the blink of an eye my life changed.
Jackson is seven months old now, it really just went from born to now. He is so amazing. His little face and his laugh, ohhh I could listen to it all day long. I snuggle and cuddle that boy at every chance. There is a different love between a boy and a girl as well as the first and the second. I know whats coming and I know that it changes overnight. They sleep and they grow. You notice subtle changes everyday, things they couldn't do yesterday. We started telling Addie that she couldn't eat anymore so she wouldn't grow. She thinks its so funny and stands on her tippy toes growing in front of us. Little Miss is turning three in a few weeks. My buddy, my first baby. We have conversations now. She tells me her preferences and loves to watch Netflix. She talks about Wifi and her imagination is out of control! Everything is a jungle or mountain. Halloween was such a fun night for us, she knew to ask for candy and she even helped us hand it out. I feel so lucky to see my babies grow and change each day. I am trying very hard to cherish these moments, I know they are fleeting.
The house is coming along, there are still areas we need to furnish but that will come with time. We are just getting used to how things work, there are still light switches I am not sure what they do. I just found a chiropractor that I am going to see tomorrow. Its just so crazy that our whole life was shook up, I have to find all new doctors for four people. I just need days to be longer and for me to need less sleep.
At the end of the day I count my blessings. I have found that I have been so thankful for everything more now then ever before. We are so blessed. I cannot say it enough. We are healthy and happy and loved.
There was a little gem in our thanksgiving tote from last year and it reads - Give more than you take. I am trying everyday to give thanks, to give more of myself to others as well as me and I am looking forward to many more adventures with my husband, daughter and son.
Friday, November 21, 2014
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Whats been going on
I have been meaning to write for so long and I am just going to throw this jumble together as quick as possible because my almost three year old is tugging my arm and asking for apple sauce even though she just ate. Jackson is thankfully not crying for half a minute so I am going to type as fast as physically possible.
We have been in the house for about six weeks now. The bugs are big but I sprayed and its been better. I am now just working on organizing and getting stuff in a spot. The kitchen is getting there and my mile long to do list has had a few things checked off in the last few days.
- Distracted by the small girl trying to get the prunes out of the pantry. She calls them big raisins.
- Ugh she got them and opened them.
The house is really nice, the extra space is wonderful. Especially with the big huge baby items that take up so much space and was suffocating us in the old house. There are moments I miss the old house, I was thinking the other day about the wood trim and the piece right above the sink that my father in law made. It was beautiful. Now we just have to bring those same beautiful pieces into this house and I have the idea. Now its just executing them.
The unpacking is almost done, there are a few boxes still left to unpack but they are opened. I have to work on the basement and the craft room mostly. We bought a table for the craft room but need to get some shelves that will eventually go to the basement.
Dans broken leg sucks. We are going into week two and its just an inconvenience. I am picking up the slack. I am just tired.
Things in the stay at home mom life are pretty good. The house is a mess but its getting there. I am getting my freezer and pantry back to normal and figuring out the grocery store situation. But its really nice to be home with my kids. Jackson is six months old! WHAT! Addie will be three in a little over a month. Are you kidding me?! How does this happen. Addie is so big, she has such a mind of her own and is such a sweet girl. She has such a personality, she says cute things and is my little help. I am working on a few things that keep my time busy, like I have much time. I have been working for a software company that assists non-profits in fundraising and marketing.
Georgia has been great so far, I mean I am doing the same thing as I did in NY but the weathers great. It has a nice chill in the air in the mornings but by noon its 70 and sunny. Awesome. I am getting used to where things are and have frequented the grocery store a bunch.
Well screaming baby who is rubbing his eyes and the big girl in the high chair. Maybe soon we will all get out of our pjs and I am making marinara sauce for dinner and the freezer.
Just another wonderful day that we are very blessed to have.
We have been in the house for about six weeks now. The bugs are big but I sprayed and its been better. I am now just working on organizing and getting stuff in a spot. The kitchen is getting there and my mile long to do list has had a few things checked off in the last few days.
- Distracted by the small girl trying to get the prunes out of the pantry. She calls them big raisins.
- Ugh she got them and opened them.
The house is really nice, the extra space is wonderful. Especially with the big huge baby items that take up so much space and was suffocating us in the old house. There are moments I miss the old house, I was thinking the other day about the wood trim and the piece right above the sink that my father in law made. It was beautiful. Now we just have to bring those same beautiful pieces into this house and I have the idea. Now its just executing them.
The unpacking is almost done, there are a few boxes still left to unpack but they are opened. I have to work on the basement and the craft room mostly. We bought a table for the craft room but need to get some shelves that will eventually go to the basement.
Dans broken leg sucks. We are going into week two and its just an inconvenience. I am picking up the slack. I am just tired.
Things in the stay at home mom life are pretty good. The house is a mess but its getting there. I am getting my freezer and pantry back to normal and figuring out the grocery store situation. But its really nice to be home with my kids. Jackson is six months old! WHAT! Addie will be three in a little over a month. Are you kidding me?! How does this happen. Addie is so big, she has such a mind of her own and is such a sweet girl. She has such a personality, she says cute things and is my little help. I am working on a few things that keep my time busy, like I have much time. I have been working for a software company that assists non-profits in fundraising and marketing.
Georgia has been great so far, I mean I am doing the same thing as I did in NY but the weathers great. It has a nice chill in the air in the mornings but by noon its 70 and sunny. Awesome. I am getting used to where things are and have frequented the grocery store a bunch.
Well screaming baby who is rubbing his eyes and the big girl in the high chair. Maybe soon we will all get out of our pjs and I am making marinara sauce for dinner and the freezer.
Just another wonderful day that we are very blessed to have.
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Swirling Emotions
I am sitting here, alone. When I have a quiet moment I realize the swirling of emotions running thru me. Sadness is the top one right now, well that and hunger. Anxiousness is a close second with excitement following. This whole process throws you in so many directions emotionally there are some days I can't believe I have my wits. I mean my life just got flipped around again just three short months ago.
I do have to attest to finding strength in my partner. This move is something we have talked about for some time now, this was not just an overnight decision. We talk about everything. Its really an amazing thing. Its the air bag that catches you before you feel like your going to hit the ground. We go back and forth on who has to be the rock that day. More recently there are days when we both need it and I think thats when you just learn to work together and get the job done.
Jackson is amazing. Ahh that little boy, steals my heart some days. He is three months old now and leaving the newborn stage behind. He is alert and funny. He loves to smile back at me, with his big gummy smile. He has been grumpy the last week, its probably a million things as to why but give it another week or so and he will change.
Funny how I am acting with this baby. I just really love each stage for where its at. I know it is so short lived. Having Jackson, we are just more in the moment. I can't say that we were not with Addison, uh please. I have a picture of her almost every day on her life! But moreso in that I know whats coming, I have seen it first hand and know it goes so quickly.
Addison is OH SO AMAZING. This girl, I mean, I can't. What! How did she get to be a person, with thoughts and decisions of her own. She is no longer a toddler, babbling about. She is two and a half, she will tell you herself. She's strong willed and beautiful. I catch myself staring at her, I am in awe of her. She is so big, her hair is so curly and snarly. Her eyelashes are dark and long and her eyes. They pull me in. When we stare into each others eyes I always tell her how beautiful they are, they have changed over the last six months. They are a green/hazel, perfect mix of Daniels and mine. There are days she says and does things that just make me so proud. She is still amazing with her brother, and my little lunch date, workout partner and mini-me.
Then I think about how all that really matters is us. That I can love this little growing family of mine anywhere. Sure I will miss my dear friends. Those who have lasted thru the shaking of life, the ones who have hung on, and the ones who own a piece of my heart. And there lies my sadness.
I do have to attest to finding strength in my partner. This move is something we have talked about for some time now, this was not just an overnight decision. We talk about everything. Its really an amazing thing. Its the air bag that catches you before you feel like your going to hit the ground. We go back and forth on who has to be the rock that day. More recently there are days when we both need it and I think thats when you just learn to work together and get the job done.
Jackson is amazing. Ahh that little boy, steals my heart some days. He is three months old now and leaving the newborn stage behind. He is alert and funny. He loves to smile back at me, with his big gummy smile. He has been grumpy the last week, its probably a million things as to why but give it another week or so and he will change.
Funny how I am acting with this baby. I just really love each stage for where its at. I know it is so short lived. Having Jackson, we are just more in the moment. I can't say that we were not with Addison, uh please. I have a picture of her almost every day on her life! But moreso in that I know whats coming, I have seen it first hand and know it goes so quickly.
Addison is OH SO AMAZING. This girl, I mean, I can't. What! How did she get to be a person, with thoughts and decisions of her own. She is no longer a toddler, babbling about. She is two and a half, she will tell you herself. She's strong willed and beautiful. I catch myself staring at her, I am in awe of her. She is so big, her hair is so curly and snarly. Her eyelashes are dark and long and her eyes. They pull me in. When we stare into each others eyes I always tell her how beautiful they are, they have changed over the last six months. They are a green/hazel, perfect mix of Daniels and mine. There are days she says and does things that just make me so proud. She is still amazing with her brother, and my little lunch date, workout partner and mini-me.
Then I think about how all that really matters is us. That I can love this little growing family of mine anywhere. Sure I will miss my dear friends. Those who have lasted thru the shaking of life, the ones who have hung on, and the ones who own a piece of my heart. And there lies my sadness.
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Dear Lord I am thankful, help us through this process
I am so thankful for the people in my life, serious. I don't know what I would do. I have a wicked headache right now. It could be the heat or it could be the housing situation. It could be that my baby was screaming before he finally fell asleep. It could be that I have cried more in the last week then I have since having Jackson.
There are so many things I believe in, being a good person and trusting in my journey here. This process is pushing every boundary. I have so much to offer and I hope that when we get to our new home I hope that someone sees that as well. I am so freaking nervous about how things will work out. Its taking a toll of the both of us. Sleeping has been less and less the last week. This shit is so emotional. This house has brought so many good things to us. We recieved an offer on the house last night, so we are going thru the process in which it will no longer be ours. Its sad. We have put so much work, sweat and tears into this home. It will forever have a special place in my heart. Its charming and something that we have morphed from a dingy house to a warm inviting home.
But our next chapter is beginning. It has some really great perks. The house we will get will be bigger and a house that we will really raise our children in. We will dig our heels in and grow roots. We won't have to deal with so much snow and cold weather.
I tell my girl all the time how strong she is, I am telling myself the same thing.
This is just crazy. Cray cray.
Sunday, June 29, 2014
This time in our lives
...its hectic, stressful, emotional, taxing, tiring.
Jackson Daniel is 10 weeks old and its flying by. I find it hard to believe how big he is already. He is smiling and cooing and turning into a baby, no longer a newborn. I am so thankful that I get to spend each day with him to watch him grow during this process.
Today is an open house for our home. Hubs is stressed, unlike I have ever seen him. Our house is immaculate and its hard for Addie because we keep telling her not to touch anything. Baby girl has been glued to the Ipad for days. This process is not for the faint of heart. We are moving our whole lives hours away. There will be strangers walking through my home without me here. But its not my home anymore. I have to emotionally detach from it even though we have spent the last month putting the finishing touches on things.
I don't have anything else to do right now, the house is clean. Jackson is sleeping on me and Addie is watching TV. I can't cook as that will make a mess. I can't do laundry as it is supposed to look as if we don't live here. Plus Jackson does not have a dresser so the poor guys clothes are everywhere but his room. So I have a moment to get my thoughts out. I have to be the strong one right now, the one who has it all together because this process is eating Dan alive. I swear there will be a gray hair found once we get to Georgia.
The thought of a newer home, a more spacious home we can grow into is exciting. But this means its our home for a good chunk of time. Thats daunting. How are the schools? How is the kitchen? Is there room for a teenage hangout? Where can we put the hot tub?!
I have to start a new life down there. I have to get a new job, meet new friends, start new routines. I feel like I was just getting all that situated here. I am going to miss my friends dearly. Really, it makes my heart hurt. I know its the right time to do this, the universe and God made things happen to get us here. Its just a lot. Its one of those instances in life that challenges you on so many levels. I am thankful that my kids are young and that Addie won't really know because it would break my heart to take her away from her friends. I am sad about leaving her first friend but can envision summers where the girls visit each other and that they can become good old-fashioned pen pals. It saddens me that my in-laws won't know Jackson like they know Addie.
This pulls on every emotion. We are waiting, I feel like that page in 'Oh the Places You'll Go'...
Waiting for the house to sell
Waiting for a house to buy
Waiting for the day to move
Waiting for the job to come
Jackson Daniel is 10 weeks old and its flying by. I find it hard to believe how big he is already. He is smiling and cooing and turning into a baby, no longer a newborn. I am so thankful that I get to spend each day with him to watch him grow during this process.
Today is an open house for our home. Hubs is stressed, unlike I have ever seen him. Our house is immaculate and its hard for Addie because we keep telling her not to touch anything. Baby girl has been glued to the Ipad for days. This process is not for the faint of heart. We are moving our whole lives hours away. There will be strangers walking through my home without me here. But its not my home anymore. I have to emotionally detach from it even though we have spent the last month putting the finishing touches on things.
I don't have anything else to do right now, the house is clean. Jackson is sleeping on me and Addie is watching TV. I can't cook as that will make a mess. I can't do laundry as it is supposed to look as if we don't live here. Plus Jackson does not have a dresser so the poor guys clothes are everywhere but his room. So I have a moment to get my thoughts out. I have to be the strong one right now, the one who has it all together because this process is eating Dan alive. I swear there will be a gray hair found once we get to Georgia.
The thought of a newer home, a more spacious home we can grow into is exciting. But this means its our home for a good chunk of time. Thats daunting. How are the schools? How is the kitchen? Is there room for a teenage hangout? Where can we put the hot tub?!
I have to start a new life down there. I have to get a new job, meet new friends, start new routines. I feel like I was just getting all that situated here. I am going to miss my friends dearly. Really, it makes my heart hurt. I know its the right time to do this, the universe and God made things happen to get us here. Its just a lot. Its one of those instances in life that challenges you on so many levels. I am thankful that my kids are young and that Addie won't really know because it would break my heart to take her away from her friends. I am sad about leaving her first friend but can envision summers where the girls visit each other and that they can become good old-fashioned pen pals. It saddens me that my in-laws won't know Jackson like they know Addie.
This pulls on every emotion. We are waiting, I feel like that page in 'Oh the Places You'll Go'...
Waiting for the house to sell
Waiting for a house to buy
Waiting for the day to move
Waiting for the job to come
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Dear baby,
Dear baby,
It is almost time for you to enter the world and for the two of us to become separate people. As you can imagine I have many emotions running through my body thinking about how our lives will be blessed in one short week. We talk a lot about you nowadays. It is not the easiest of concepts for Addie to understand but she surely knows that you are in my belly. My body has grown very much in the last few months, its pretty impossible to not notice, even for your two year old sister.
All that we have done since knowing and wanting children has been for you too. The was we love each other allows us to incorporate you and the way we run our family is waiting for you too. Who knows what the future holds for us, there may be other members of our family to come or you may complete us, but know that you have always been with us. You father will amaze you, he has such a kind heart and I fall more in love with him watching him with your sister. Addie is going to be such a good big sister, she can be bossy at times and I am sure you two may disagree but the bond between you two will be everlasting.
Speaking of not knowing your gender, we are so very ready to meet you. Its more than just getting the information at this point of who you are but moreso seeing your beautiful face and meeting you as a person. Having known with Addie we were excited to see her and interested to know just how big she was. You child have been so very kind to your mother thus far. You are a bigger baby but I think we may just make nice healthy babies. This pregnancy has been so easy, granted I had my share of sickness and aches but all in all, I will miss you. As I mentioned before its been so different from Addison. I am cherishing these last moments with you, I love to feel you wake in the mornings. I can tell your asleep because your heavy on one side of my stomach. I can feel your back and give your some rubs to wake you. I also love when I eat and shortly thereafter you start dancing as you have just received some nutrients. Sleep has becoming non-existent but I look forward to having you to care for, over watching reruns of television at 3 a.m. I cannot complain about my size, its just as big as you need it and kiddo I know it could be bigger so thanks for not taking up ALL the room.
Your sister and I have been blessed to have the last two months to really bond and for us to get closer. Really it was more for me as I will have these memories forever. I look forward to her meeting you, my heart will double in size in a matter of seconds. There is a part of me that wants to fast forward the next seven days and another part that wants them to slow down. Its such a struggle, being patient and waiting versus anxiously hoping for another day.
It is almost time for you to enter the world and for the two of us to become separate people. As you can imagine I have many emotions running through my body thinking about how our lives will be blessed in one short week. We talk a lot about you nowadays. It is not the easiest of concepts for Addie to understand but she surely knows that you are in my belly. My body has grown very much in the last few months, its pretty impossible to not notice, even for your two year old sister.
Your dad and I have been preparing for you by getting the house all ready for about the last month. Up until that point we knew you were coming but it seemed like it was still far enough away and Addie keeps us pretty busy. Your room is ready, sort of. Really the crib is set up and Addison has been moved to another room. I have left most of it the same and will make it yours when we know if you are a girl or boy.
As I lay my head down tonight I will hold my belly a little tighter. I will embrace your kicks and nudges a little more. We have one week until you enter the world and I so very much look forward to that moment. I have loved you before I knew you and will love you until the end of time.
Love Always and Forever,
Mom
Mom
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Busy little bees
We'll it's Sunday morning and I am writing this post in bed on. My fancy new iPad that was a birthday present to me! Last week was my birthday and I was for sure spoiled. In a good way, in a way that any 9 month pregnant woman really should be because frankly it's been a while since I could put on my pants without issues or have had a decent nights sleep. Thanks to my awesome Christmas present the fitbit I really do know how much sleep I am not getting. The birthday events started in Sunday when hubs let me nap, like a three hour uninterupted amaze balls legit sleep. I was so thankful.
Monday morning I was woken up by serenades of Happy Birthday and a present to open. Perfect way to start the day! Then it was business as usual for Addie and myself, breakfast, playtime, nap time, wait for daddy to get home. That evening we went to my in-laws for dinner and got some foryo afterwards. There are some days that I just don't feel like froyo but it tasted very delicious that day. When we got home it was close to Addie's bedtime so I opened her present to me and it was a prenatal massage. Ahh! All I wanted!!! It came from both my babies and I am so excited. It has been scheduled for this Friday after my last pregnant lunch date with my husband. Daniel had me open my card from him which was beautiful, that mans really knows how to pick a good card. It's a hobby for him, and he is really good at it! He got us two tickets to a wine making class about a month after the baby is born, I mean who doesn't love wine especially after being pregnant! We ended the day in usual fashion by TV time and then I attempted to sleep.
Later that week I had a mom date with a really really good friend and we went to the melting pot. I had never been there and it was so good. Delicious, I ate my face off. It was a great evening of no kiddos and great conversation. I completely enjoy when my friends just pick up where we left off, I have not been the greatest on keeping up with all of them and I will try to be better, it's just really nice when there no hard feelings about being absent.
Well I believe I have run out of uninterupted typing time as someone things it's funny to try to hit all the buttons. We have 9 days until this baby is coming out. We are tackling the kitchen, laundry and straightening downstairs today. Also going to take full advantage of this nice day... Finally... To take some maternity pictures. So another busy day! Off we go!
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