Jackson Daniel is 10 weeks old and its flying by. I find it hard to believe how big he is already. He is smiling and cooing and turning into a baby, no longer a newborn. I am so thankful that I get to spend each day with him to watch him grow during this process.
Today is an open house for our home. Hubs is stressed, unlike I have ever seen him. Our house is immaculate and its hard for Addie because we keep telling her not to touch anything. Baby girl has been glued to the Ipad for days. This process is not for the faint of heart. We are moving our whole lives hours away. There will be strangers walking through my home without me here. But its not my home anymore. I have to emotionally detach from it even though we have spent the last month putting the finishing touches on things.
I don't have anything else to do right now, the house is clean. Jackson is sleeping on me and Addie is watching TV. I can't cook as that will make a mess. I can't do laundry as it is supposed to look as if we don't live here. Plus Jackson does not have a dresser so the poor guys clothes are everywhere but his room. So I have a moment to get my thoughts out. I have to be the strong one right now, the one who has it all together because this process is eating Dan alive. I swear there will be a gray hair found once we get to Georgia.
The thought of a newer home, a more spacious home we can grow into is exciting. But this means its our home for a good chunk of time. Thats daunting. How are the schools? How is the kitchen? Is there room for a teenage hangout? Where can we put the hot tub?!
I have to start a new life down there. I have to get a new job, meet new friends, start new routines. I feel like I was just getting all that situated here. I am going to miss my friends dearly. Really, it makes my heart hurt. I know its the right time to do this, the universe and God made things happen to get us here. Its just a lot. Its one of those instances in life that challenges you on so many levels. I am thankful that my kids are young and that Addie won't really know because it would break my heart to take her away from her friends. I am sad about leaving her first friend but can envision summers where the girls visit each other and that they can become good old-fashioned pen pals. It saddens me that my in-laws won't know Jackson like they know Addie.
This pulls on every emotion. We are waiting, I feel like that page in 'Oh the Places You'll Go'...
Waiting for the house to sell
Waiting for a house to buy
Waiting for the day to move
Waiting for the job to come
