On the horizon

It is a Monday morning to a new week. Tomorrow is my 29th birthday. It is the start of another year and this last one has been a great one too. I recall thinking about my birthday last year at eight months pregnant getting ready for a new baby and wondering where my life is heading. We toyed with the idea of moving to Georgia but it was not certain then. Really we just needed to have our new baby before we could figure out our next major life event. So much happened last year and here we are at another birthday and it looks as though this year will be just as eventful. 

Next week is the transfer as long as everything continues to look good, I have a doctors apointment tomorrow for my last ultrasound. I have had between ten to twelve in the last month so to know this might be the last one before the big day is super exciting. I have not yet received my flight details but I should be flying out next Monday and returning Wednesday. 

Two days ago I picked up Addison and tweaked my back so bad. I have to start my prenatal yoga because they do not want me to go to the chiropractor so I need to work on getting things inbalance. Plus my house is a freaking disaster from my cold and now my back I am a hot mess. I am however looking forward to getting out to Las Vegas and enjoying a day alone. Although thinking about being away I almost immediately think of how much I am going to miss my kids. 

I am excited about the upcoming events of this year. I can't believe this is my last year of my twenties. I have had many great things in my life in the last ten years and I look forward to the next ten. 

Bring it on twenty nine. And bring me my ice cream cake! 

Badass Mama

So today was one of those days where I was running around, I had a doctors appointment so the kids had to go to daycare and Addie needed lunch and they were doing an egg hunt. So of course today of all days both kids want to sleep in. So I already feel like I am behind and I am begging small people to find shoes and let me comb their hair and other obnoxious requests said over and over. Finally I get everyone in the car, dropped off at school and then on my way. The traffic here is so similar to NJ but so different than upstate NY. So at 10am I am still fighting my way thru decent traffic. I get to the office and they get me in right away for the blood work. Easy... I have done it at least 15 times this month already so whats another one! The most I had to do was wait for the Ultrasound tech to finish with the lady before me. I get in and the tech says everything looks good, although she is vague because they cannot give me information as I am not their patient.

So I drive back hit up the ATM to pay daycare and grab eggs because I used the last one and was rushing to get to the egg hunt on time. Made it with minutes to spare! Picked up Jackson from his room and went to watch Addie grab some easter eggs. Earlier that morning I didn't feel like eating so I had a bite of a banana but now at 1:30 I was hungry so I stopped at Wendys quick. I knew I had to eat fast because Jackson does not nap well at daycare so I would have a girl excited to eat all the candy and a boy screaming at me because he is ready to sleep. So I got out of the car grabbed the bags brought them in, unbuckled Addie, grabbed the mail, then retrieved tinkerbell from the back of the car, found Jacksons shoe he kicked off and unbuckled him. Finally everyone was in the house, I let the dog out, told Addie a thousand times to wait for me to open her eggs and was getting Jackson some food to hold him over. We opened eggs I took some pictures, Jackson finished eating, I made a bottle and put him to bed. I came downstairs to Addie still playing with a few of the little trinket toys she received and answered some emails.

Addie was giving me a few moments so I was actually able to reply to these emails. The agency I am working with mentioned getting my plane tickets for me and Daniel a few days ago. I told them that Daniel did not plan on coming. Her next email was, Are you going to be okay on your own? and Can you give yourself the shots? Enter BadAss Mama - Hell yea I can go on my own (I mean c'mon a few days of quiet, alone, by myself with no chores to do and real cable?!) and Yes I can do the shots myself (I have to do them for almost three months so yea I have to get over the fact I am giving myself a needle and just do it).

After responding to that email and telling Addie she cannot have anymore candy for the millionth time it made me feel like I was awesome.

All the while my house is a DISASTER, I have had a cold for days and have not done any chores. But in that short moment I felt pretty good about myself.

This process of being a surrogate is no damn joke. It is a job, one that I take very seriously. I am the person who can make someones dream come true. That is a pretty big undertaking. I have been thinking a lot about where my life is going to take me and at the end of the day I just want to be a good person and raise my children to be good people as well.

Family Happenings

We have been back in Georgia for a week now, it feels really good to be home. It feels good to be back to my normal routine, grocery shopping, cleaning and laundry. Its quite humorous that those things make me feel more at home but its the truth.

Jackson has taken his first steps of which I captured and sent to Daniel on video. Then he posted them on FB so if you haven't seen Jackson stepping and mommy squealing go check it out. I am happy and saddened by this. Of course it is amazing to watch him hit his milestones but then I am losing a little part of my baby. It seems like yesterday that Addison was born but she is my big three year old who is so independent and will start pre-school in the fall. Jackson is not far behind, today its first steps, then first words and then college.
..::slight exaggeration maybe::..

This week was a hectic one we got home Monday late afternoon. We unpacked our stuff from the car and ate dinner, showers and bedtime. I had to go to the doctor twice this week and Daniels car would not start Tuesday morning. The car is all fixed now thanks to a mechanic and some hard earned money of course. As for the doctors I have been cleared to start medications. I started with estrogen patches and pills yesterday, we also sent back the signed contract Friday. This surrogate process is getting really real.

I was also given my transfer date of April 7th. That means I will most likely be flying into Las Vegas the night before and patiently waiting for my transfer time. For those who do not know about the IVF process, the embryo is already waiting for me and what the doctor will simply do is transfer the embryo into my uterus for housing. Then we wait two weeks for blood work to see if we have a positive pregnancy. I am very hopeful, I am super diligent with my medications and making sure I am ready. This whole process is so exciting and nerve wracking at the same time. I am excited for the intended parents, I keep flashing to the moment they meet their baby and it brings so much joy to my heart. Now I know we have a long road until we get there and I understand things change on a dime so for today I am making sure my hydration is on point and my meds are taken at the right times.

I took a bunch of pictures from Jacksons birthday but I haven't even uploaded them yet. Mom Fail. Meh they will get done. He knows I love him, I only tell him a hundred times a day.

I have some really cute pictures of both my children I hope to add to the next post and as usual check my instagram @keifferfamily for all the ones I chose to post :)

Until next time, hopefully soon.